What did I lose?

I search and I search,

Eyes dry and red,

Mind racing and churning,

Hope rising and falling,

To find that which I lost...

I know I miss it,

I know I want it,

I know it's somewhere here,

I know my hands will spread far,

To find that which I lost...

I remember the feeling,

I remember the memories,

I remember the thoughts,

I remember the dangers that arise,

To find that which I lost...

Famished and weary,

Overwrought with fear and pain,

Thinning down with dwindling hopes,

I ask myself over and over,

What did I have, for me to have lost?